I gotta tell you. Please pray for me. A friend is coming to check on me in a little bit. I’ve been in a three year relationship that’s killing me. Please no advice. I don’t know how I’m going to get through this one. Even people who feel like dying don’t want to. That’s why I’m going to keep humiliating myself, and begging for your prayer and compassion until I find the courage to stand up for myself.
Just now, I threw my dog out of the house because he came in stinking of mire. If/when he comes back, there’s no telling what he will have done to himself.
Not much else to say and no adequate “I hate myself” videos on youtube.
Why is it so hard for me to see him as a liar? Or to admit he doesn’t care about me?